Tuesday, October 21, 2014

It is permanent

E and I discussed our plans for our family shortly before, and then after, Meeghan was born. We both decided that two children were enough for us. He agreed to have a vasectomy done, and started the process about a month after Meeghan was born. However, the Navy changed his plans and he had to delay it...until last Friday. E finally had the procedure done (almost two years later). I was so dang happy. A part of me thought I would be sad knowing that we wouldn't have more kids, but I wasn't. I think that is a pretty good sign that I am content with the family we have. I am also glad that he volunteered to do it. My body hates hormonal birth control so birth control is limited for me. Thankfully, he didn't see it as an end to his manhood and was okay with the procedure (like some other men I know). Now, let's hope it worked so he doesn't have to do it again.

Monday, October 6, 2014

32 seconds

Remember how I thought the race on Saturday would go pretty well? Ha, I was wrong.

Saturday morning I woke up early, took my time getting ready, and left right on time. I made it to teh stadium with about 30 minutes to spare. I hustled to the bathrooms, and waited and waited. As I was waiting, the rain rolled in. That's right, the 20% chance of rain turned into 100% of rain. It wasn't a gentle rain either. It was a freaking downpour that lasted for a good 15 minutes. Thank goodness when it was starting to rain harder I was close to the front of the line. After I hit the bathroom, I sprinted to the overpass for some protection from the rain. However, by that time I was soaked and shivering. The rain stopped just in time for us to line up at the starting line. This meant I didn't warm up at all. I usually jog for a bit to warm up the muscles before I stand at the start. Not this time. I had to start cold with wet socks and shoes. After a canon blast start (it scared the crap out of me), I tried to go slow like I had in training runs. I guess the adrenaline kicked in though because I started faster than I wanted. I was trying so hard to go slow, but my body wanted to go faster. Overall the course was really nice. It went through a neighborhood that I haven't seen much of so it was nice to take in the sights. The last few miles were along the river which was beautiful, but it meant running into the sun. By this time, the sun was up and the temperature was in the 70s. I experienced an odd combination of being hot and shivering. The wind was coming off the water which gave us a nice breeze, but it made me cold. There was also a pedestrian type bridge we had to cross around mile 11. It was steep so I walked all of it, and then the downhill part was a circle ramp. I walked a lot at the end. My body crashed. My mind crashed. I was done. I knew at mile 10 if I wanted to make my B goal I would have to push it, and I just gave up. I am so mad at myself. I gave up. I could have pushed it. Physically I was tired, but I could have done it. In the end, I finished 32 seconds faster than my last half marathon. So technically it was a PR, but I was pretty disappointed. Looking at my splits, I can tell where I started to lose it mentally.

I have no idea what happened, but I struggled. I don't know if it was the cold start, too fast of a start, the fact I had to pee starting at mile 1, or I need to toughen up mentally. I am pretty sure it is the last one. Although I didn't meet my goals, I did finish so I will take it. Half marathon #2 is in the books. #3 is in about 5 weeks when I will run Disney's Wine and Dine Half Marathon. (Woohoo! So much food to eat.)

Did I mention that the finish line was in a park that had become a mud pit? Good times.


Friday, October 3, 2014

Half marathon, here I come!

Tomorrow I have my first race of the season. I will be running in the Jacksonville Marine Corps Half Marathon. I am feeling pretty good about it. I haven't had the same nerves like I did with my last half. Actually, this one kind of sneaked up on me since I am so focused on the marathon. I am running with a certain goal time. Most of the time my goal is to finish and have fun. This time I am trying hard to better my last half time so I can (hopefully) move up in the corrals for the marathon in January. The weather is still hot here, but thank goodness a cold front is moving through tonight. It will be in the 50s tomorrow morning. That is so cold! It is glorious to run in, but this girl hasn't had that cold of temperatures in months. I will have to wear some old sweats to the starting line so I can stay warm. Also, the course typically runs over two bridges. We don't have hills in Florida so most elevation changes come in the form of bridges or overpasses (Disney). Due to construction, the bridges have been removed which means this course should be pretty flat. I am so happy! I have tried to find all the hills I can in my neighborhood, but they definitely don't feel like a bridge. I am hoping between the cooler temperatures and the course I will hit my B goal. I decided to do the A, B, and C goal for this race. A is looking out of reach based on training runs, but I think B is doable. Plus B will still move me up in the corrals. This weekend is supposed to be my 15 mile training run so I plan on running an additional 2 miles after I finish.

Now, let's hope the girls cooperate tonight and let me sleep. Thanks to the Navy, E is on a flight until well past midnight today which means I am on my own tonight.

Friday, September 26, 2014

4 year olds

Lately, Hannah has been struggling with sleep which means I don't sleep either. When she was two the train that she could hear during the night even if she was passed out scared her. Last year it was the cars driving down the street. Now, it is the smoke detector. I kid you not. The smoke detector. The red light on it scares her. She can't see it from her room, but she knows it is there and it bothers her. She peed her pants last night because she was too scared to leave the room to go to the bathroom. (The smoke detector is next to the bathroom.) It took me two hours to get her to settle down so she could go back to sleep. This is happening every night, and I am starting to go crazy. The only way she will go back to sleep is if I am sleeping near her. One night I slept on the couch and she slept on the love seat. Most nights, though, I end up sleeping in her bed until she falls asleep and I use my stealth ninja skills to sneak out of her room. This child has always struggled with sleeping. I was full (and still am) of irrational fears as a child so I am trying to be patient. My parents addressed it by saying I could sleep on their floor if I felt scared. Unfortunately, E isn't too keen on that idea which means I am stuck trying to find ways to keep her in her bed. His solution is to let her cry until she falls asleep. That way doesn't work because she always wakes Meeghan with her crying so then I have two children awake at 2am and a sleeping husband who isn't helping. I am at a loss. She won't go to her room or the bathroom during the day unless I go with her. Anybody have any suggestions? We have discussed that the smoke detector won't hurt her. I am about to cover the lights on it to see if that helps. I don't want to disconnect it or cover it completely.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Virtual 5K

This past Saturday I participated in the #djv5K hosted by Macke Monologues. My goal for this was to run a 5K in 27:49. It did not happen on Saturday. I woke up feeling off. I just didn't have it in me that morning. I had a good run, but not the run I planned. I did break the 27:49 time on a run earlier in my training so I will count the training as a success.

My time on Saturday was 28:43 so I missed it by a full minute. However, I like the pace so I will take it. The top right was from a week ago. I meant to run a full 3.1 miles, but I was so excited when I saw the miles turn to 3 that I stopped early. I realized after I hit 'end run' that I meant to do another tenth of a mile. Oh well. I am very pleased with that time. That is the first time I sustained a pace under 9 minutes for a run over 1.5 miles. The bottom right picture is from 2 weeks ago. I ran 5 miles that day, and I set my PR for a 5K during that run.

During this training, I did learn a few things about myself. I always thought I was better when I ran solo. My fastest 5K time came during a run with E. We decided to do our run together, and he could push the stroller. I told him to start out, and I would try to keep up. I found it helped chasing him. It gave me something to strive for. He kept pushing me when I was tired, and it worked. I was able to maintain a pace I was happy with. If I had been by myself, I probably would have slowed down a lot. I know there are times to slow down, but there are times when you need to push it. Which brings me to my second point. My biggest hurdle with running isn't the physical aspect, it is the mental part. I screw myself a lot thinking I can't do it. I need to train my mind to think like I can instead of just telling me to give up. When the marathon training starts pushing into those long runs, I am going to need to be physically and mentally strong.

Am I the only one that struggles with the mental aspect of running?

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Back to School

Florida has a free Pre-K program for 4 year olds. I took full advantage of this to enroll Hannah in school. She has been begging to go to school for a year. The minute she turned 4 she has been asking how long until school starts. She finally started last week, and she was so excited. She had a cold a few days after school started, and I told her she had to stay home. There were so many tears from her. She was crushed that she had to stay home. Thankfully, it was only one day at home and she happily went back to school the next day. I am glad she is loving school. Meeghan isn't too happy about it. She doesn't like leaving Hannah at school, but she squeals when we pick her up. I hope the happiness about going to school keeps up since she has 9 more months of it. 

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Almost Fall Racing Season

37 days

That is how much time I have left until my first big race of the season. I added this one so I can use it as a (hopefully) better proof of time for the marathon. I wasn't too thrilled with my last half time, and so I am hoping I can better it to move up in the corrals. My goal is to shave 10 minutes off my time, but if my training runs are an indication, it won't happen. I am becoming faster with my runs of 6 miles or less, but anything over that and I am still struggling to keep my pace under 10:30. I tell myself it is the heat, and once it cools off I will run my target pace. (It felt like 88 degrees at 6:30am when I left for my 9 mile run Saturday morning.) Or it could be this is the pace my body is set to run and I won't be able to change it. Either way, I will keep pushing and see what the cooler weather holds for me.